It's Me, Lucy!

29th July 2015 - the day our world changed forever. Rewinding back a little, we spent weeks 12 - 20 of our pregnancy fully embracing every second! Once we had our 12 week scan and everything was as it should be, we really settled into enjoying being pregnant, after all it would most likely be the only time that we would experience it. Apart from the bleed at 6 weeks and feeling sick pretty much all the time up until 18 weeks, my pregnancy was "textbook"! I was loving every bout of sickness and heartburn feeling that little bit more reassured that these were all positive signs! I couldn't wait for my bump to show and actually look pregnant!  Although we were fully immersed in this whole new world that we had longed for, we still remained slightly apprehensive knowing that good luck rarely ever lasts with us. And we were right! We had our 20 week anomaly scan on 7th July but the Sonographer couldn't get a good view of the heart so we were asked to ...

3rd September 2014 - The day we flew to Rhodes. Once again, we needed an escape from everyday life and the misery we were feeling following our miscarriage. We had decided for the first time since we started IVF that we needed a proper break. No more waiting for 3 periods and getting back into it. No more putting life on hold. No more hormones. We had had an appointment with Anne and she agreed that I wasn't in the frame of mind for another cycle. She told us that, had we not come to that conclusion ourselves, she would have advised the unit that she didn't think I was mentally prepared to try again and we wouldn't have been allowed to do it anyway. What I haven't mentioned is that for every cycle, every transfer, every little thing that was done, we had to fill in millions of consent forms. We had to consent to them using our eggs and sperm, recovering my eggs, transfer of any embryos and even what we would do with any frozen embryos should our partner die!! Its...